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I have never been great at explaining myself in words. My profile name: OnCloudNine5352 has a particular meaning for me. 5352 is the number I associate with a very good friend who has always been there for me. OnCloudNine is the phrase that those I associate with me tell me I always am.

I am always "On Cloud Nine" they do not typically mean that I am high or tripping but that I am estatic and full of energy, that I am the "happiest" person they know. I am very good at portraying happiness and contentment.

I have always firmly believed that most people do not want to spend their time with misery and all I know is that I don't want to spend my time alone and so I make sure that I am the happiest and craziest person they have ever met and when I succeed, and I do succeed, I am not alone.

Unfortunately it takes a lot of work to portray this attitude. I am sure anyone who lives this lifestyle would say the same thing. It takes staying fit to maintain the body image and staying emotionally stable (atleast on the outside). I find that through self injury and working out along with dieting I am able to do all of the above criteria mentioned.

I do find that one thing is missing: people that actually know me for who I am and accept me for who I am, and so that is why I am creating this profile, so I can be myself online where it is easier to handle rejection.